A matter of perspective

It is all a matter of perspective. 

I thought we were doing quite badly on the sleep front, until Elijah got sick.  And then I realised that we were actually doing ok, before that is, because now we are really not doing so well.  and the funny thing is, because I have accepted it, because I know that is how it is going to be,  because he is poorly and I am his Mummy and therefore I will do all I can for him...well I slept for maybe 3 hours on and off last night and yet I feel ok.

Poor little monkey has some baby bronchitis thing, I am so disappointed as I stupidly thought that by exclusively breastfeeding he would be free of all horrible bugs, but alas not.  I even ate red meat tonight in the hope that the iron may boost his immune system.  Horrible to see him poorly, and to know that I can't make it better for him.  Although I have practiced Reiki on him.

In fact I managed to fit in a Reiki session yesterday, my first treatment on someone since the beginning of March.  How wonderful not only the quiet time focusing on one's breath and the movement of energy, but also the joy of the Reiki energy.  Just such a gift, really, I just love the feeling it provides, the clarity, the intuition, the resonance.  Hoorah for Reiki!

But I guess Elijah is on his path, like all of us, and while I channel Reiki to him, he has to go through his stuff, poor little monkey.  We bought him a high chair today, wooden of course, and a walker thing, as his legs do not stop moving, only that he is too big for it! And on that note why on earth do all those baby things have to be so plastic?!

As for my healing, finally I got to the bottom of what has been bothering me and it is what I initially thought, which means that the intuition is always best - such a relief as I find it very frustrating when you know something is not right and you think you know why, but you cannot prove it...

But that is what it is all about, listening and trusting and following and being open and timing...and we got there in the end and hopefully my little boy will heal quickly and the we can go and enjoy a long walk together...because it is so beautiful out there, Spring has sprung and nature is looking beautiful is beautiful, blue bells, all that wild garlic (have you noticed how much this year?!), campions, violets, so beautiful - all those late evenings too.

So I guess I am reminded how everything changes and how much I shall relish the sleepless nights for all the cuddle they provide and how there is a yin to every yang and a joy to every sorrow.  and for now I just hope my little boy gets better.

Much love

xxx

Hoorah for the full moon

What incredible weather we are experiencing here in Guernsey, such amazing Easter holidays for the children, not so for those of us in offices!!  Still the moon has also been an absolute delight, with a full on Tuesday in the early hours, which has been brightening our nights and pushing us along to be honest with ourselves - it is all about the balance!  I put my crystals outside to bathe in the moon's rays and energy, wow, they were sparkling the next day!

The good news is that there has been a healing. The combination of Reiki, acupuncture, homeopathy, nutrition, colonic irrigation, yoga and sea swimming seems to have worked their magic. It is funny how many times I have been here, in a position where I need to heal myself -  it is an empowering experience to heal holistically, and I feel more me than I have done since giving birth to Elijah - the give away is the food I eat, the colours I seek and the crystals I wear.

We managed to get to L'Eree for an hour after work on Tuesday, how wonderful to sit on the beach with our little man and take it in turn to dip in the sea.  We traipsed around the reservoir later that evening, so beautiful at the moment with all the bluebells and primroses.  We live on a very beautiful Island and I feel most blessed.

So Elijah is still waking many times in the night but I am more accepting of this.  It is what it is and it is not going to last forever. He is such a shining light in my life and I am embracing all the night time cuddles.

These are happy times, long may they last. Thank you to all who have helped me come through the other side.

Happy Easter everyone!

xxxxxx

Healing thyself

Well I would love to say that Elijah is sleeping through the night but alas not.  Just coming up to 5 months and he has cut his first tooth and is teething his way through the next.  So unfortunately the night's are still fairly active with him feeding every 1.5-2 hours, I guess he needs the milk to grow his teeth!!

Some days are better than others, in terms of my ability to function while sleep deprived, it really is incredible how much it affects how you feel.  I do have to check in with myself a little more than usual just to check if my behaviour/feeling is truly validated or merely an over-reaction due to increased sleep deprived sensitivity.

I have been on a bit of a healing mission of late too.  I have an unexplained skin condition, which warrants referral to a skin specialist and Elijah has developed eczema all over his little body.  My skin condition first appeared in January and since that time I have tried all sorts of herbal remedies to clear it but without any success.  Two months in and the doctor prescribed antibiotics, which I was happy to take having tried all other options, but even they did not have much impact and instead left me feeling even more tired than I had felt previously.

I have seen my homeopath and we have been working with a remedy, which works different levels, so that I must admit I am feeling more "me" than I have felt in a long time - I do love homeopathy, such a gentle and yet powerful approach to healing.  I have seen Sophie Shand too and undertaken  food insensitivity testing, which showed I am insensitive to lots of things at the moment - quite scary to realise that most of one's diet is actually causing the immune system some strife, and yikes, I am even insensitive to dark chocolate, my saviour after all these sleepless nights of late!!!

So my diet has changed too.  Heck I even took Sophie's advice and had my first colonic irrigation session.  Now this is an interesting experience!!  I had a number of internal Ayurvedic treatments (Basti) a number of years ago now while undertaking a 10-day Ayurvedic cleansing programme in Nepal, but this was an entirely different experience, which did indeed leave me feeling incredible energised and clean.  I guess there is a lot to be said in terms of how the state of the colon (large intestine) affects the state of our health.

Ewan and I have been getting in the sea quite a bit too. Our beloved Petit Bot is not quite such an easy going swimming beach - the storms brought in a ton of large stones which make high tide swimming a little more challenging than in the past.  We have started going to Saints too, although the walk is not so easy going with Elijah in the push chair, at least not on the way back up that hill!!    I read something recently about how water is such a great healer - you cry it, bathe in it or drink it, all of which are meant to help keep us healthy.

I received a massage from the lovely Hayley at the weekend, in exchange for yoga - I do love the bartering system!  As for the treatment well that was rather wonderful, not least to have the tension massaged out of one's body but also to chatter spiritually.  Nothing quite like a good natter with like minded friends to raise the spirit and make one feel connected and inspired on the path. 

In any event, despite all my efforts (I haven't touched any dark chocolate since I saw Sophie!) I still have the skin condition, which is perplexing my challenging my ability to heal myself.  I must admit there is a part of me that wonders whether a good week of sunshine, outdoor living and a good ten hours sleep each night may solve the problem.  Who knows.  Well I am just hoping that the skin specialist knows because this healing oneself holistically does come cheap, what with treatments and supplements and potions and wheat-free, dairy-free and organic wholefoods.

Still it is all rather interesting for I am learning lots and no doubt I will have to bow down to the wonders of modern medicine once again, it seems I am fated this way this year!!  I guess one just has to accept and embrace help in whatever form it presents itself, be that holistic, medical or whatever else.  It is all about balance after all - as I am constantly reminded.  Oh and patience of course!!

Love and light and much laughter on this beautiful sunny day!!

Emma x